xanos
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Post by xanos on Jun 18, 2006 2:25:31 GMT
Greetings to this Order. I found the link many months ago when I was still an Apprentice of Sithism. Sadly, they banned me and unless asked I will not speak of that matter here.
I hope to find in this place what I am searching for, but I do not know if I belong here. I mean, I cannot write out the Code because I do have allegence to the 'Dark Side'. I will not and cannot change that about myself. I hope that the leadership here will understand that.
I am not here to cause trouble. I just need a place to call home, I always have. I thought I had that at Sithism but I did not.
I also wish to share much of what I know, or at least think I know.
In Darkness,
=Xanos=
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Post by Anubium on Jun 18, 2006 13:49:56 GMT
I have taken the time today to read through a larger majority of your posts there, and I can honestly say that you are welcomed with open arms by me. I myself have recently left Sithism for good and I would like for you to read my goodbye as well, Xanos. At your leisure naturally. This site will be relatively slow by comparisons but I can guarantee personally at least one reply to every question, a depository of knowledge that I can offer and comparatively more freely, and finally I speak for the Admin here (Grail) when I tell you that you are free here. Naturally, petty things like squabbles with no point or productiveness, unintelligent lessons that teach nothing, et cetera will not be as tolerated but you have not had that problem by what I have read of you. I for one completely look foreward to your works, your knolwedgable contributions, and the refined spirit behind your words I have now come to appreciate.
Lastly, forget Sithism. If you were to speak to a number of those that have left it you would mostly find quitters naturally and then you would have those that realised that Sithism is a stepping stone. It is only natural to move on to greater things for only you can reach the greatest for you. You must have the determination and self-initiative to achieve more than anyone can ever teach you how. You have outgrown your old home and I welcome you to this one with hopes that it will only further your desires and ambitions.
Would you tell us here a bit of yourself?
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xanos
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Post by xanos on Jun 18, 2006 17:07:31 GMT
~Bows in respect~
Thank you, Anubium. Exactly where might I find your 'goodbye' to Sithism? I do not have access to the site anymore due to being banned. I was thinking of working something out there maybe to be able to at least see what is going on, but I am giving this second thoughts now.
Regarding myself, I was a very strong and some would say insightful person. Much of that changed when I requested to train with a Master. The result of this was that I was basically judged falsely, kicked, stepped on and tossed out of the site as an 'attention seeker' and 'dark wannabee'. I was denied training (though I will still do so with the one who accepted me off-site) and told I could never be 'like them' because I did not have the capability.
I will admit I lost faith in myself for a while and I have still not recovered fully from that experience. However, perhaps this will be a new start for me. From your post, I am welcomed here and for that I thank you from the depths of me.
As for everything else, my studies encompass Sociology, Theology, UFOlogy, Parapsychology, Transpersonal Psychology, Ancient Civilizations, Astronomy, The Occult, Psychology, Criminology and I have a penchant for the Black Arts.
I have held a fascination; no... more than that... A Passion for the 'darkside' since I was Eighteen. This is when an embodiment of that 'darkside' came to me and I accepted it with open arms.
I will admit I'm not the same as most I have met that follow the 'darkside'. I do not believe myself higher than what I serve and I do not believe I will ever be higher or equal for that matter to it. I do however believe that I can be equal or higher than any human upon this planet. I do not seek to be a great leader, I merely wish to find them, teach them and then remain behind the scenes as they become what I saught them to be. I suppose in that way I have much in common with the 'Sith Lord', though I certianly do not claim that rank.
My hobbies are computer art, drawing, painting, writing of all types, watching horror movies, fantasizing, reading various books and playing the odd video game.
Lastly, I hope that my stay here will be profitable for myself and those who I discourse with.
=Xanos=
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Post by Anubium on Jun 18, 2006 23:09:21 GMT
ANUBIUM Posted: Tue Jun 06, 2006 4:15 am Post subject: Revelations
I am only slightly unnerved that for whatever reason my going away speach was not here when I return. A mild thing that was something to the effect of me finally understanding the point of a few things. That to me certain things kept secret here are not as powerful as I had hoped. I came here searching for power, with one of my favorite views being that you make your ownself powerful and that I finally realized I was being literally hypocritical by staying here, hoping for a new rescource of knowledge when I could spend the time learning it myself. Feeling like a fool, I did just that.
I believe my little bio is not as familiar to this board as it would be to only a very few such as Grail...so basically after my real temple's ashes have finally cooled, my teachings are now being spread rampantly without my overlording. It has grown beyond my control and its all over now. I've spent the time beginning again from scratch with another art to be able to beat what has been my life long accomplishment of Kao Seta. I call it Kao Ra and again, here I am to talk with fellows of like belief. The whole, stay here and you can one day learn the secrets? Keep them. I have my own now. I didn't come back to wait eagerly for power to be given. I truly believe this was the point of all these "secret lessons." It was to drive people to go out and make it on their own and truly master these things. Another lesson I knew and need to be realised.
So yeah...I'm back for good. Anyone want to update me? ================================================================== (A welcome back to Sithism post by Grail, and an odd time for one called Leon to simply say LOL for no apparent reason.) ================================================================== KAMEAR_THE_WANDERER Posted: Sat Jun 10, 2006 7:32 am Post subject: Re: Revelations
yeah man heres an update...
there are no secret lessons... just real conversation to a certain point...
welcome back man and don't try to make this a job or anything just have fun and try to open your mind to what everyone is talking about. thats all this is realy about. plus because I'm the rebel of this whole thing I'll tell you the secret... once you get up in rank its a job not just a forum.
*listens to Ice Cube cuz he's a real nigga* ================================================================== ANUBIUM Posted: Sun Jun 11, 2006 11:51 pm Post subject:
Wow...I could have been saved a number of hours...I came here to progress and gain power. This was all a wasted effort then according to your account. I again, reinstate that I will be leaving and this time there is absolutely no reason to return. I wish you all do gain something from this as you continue to return as you have long before I came and may well long after I am gone. But with the only reasons seeming to be to rise in job status to facilitate the teachings of others but there are no secrets to teach...this becomes a place of introductory teachings and common place conversations to pass the time in an intelligable meeting ground. None of the reasons I now justify this board to myself, are reason enough to stay. The resources here have expended their utility, nothing that can not be gained or has been gained.
I bid you all a farewell and a good fortune in your persuits whatever they may be and the quality therein. ==================================================================
The individual is a warlord by rank. A portional testament to the quality of the rank Sithism employs. To my knowledge, I've never been "attacked" there by anyone except a Jedi called Hannigan. Even then, playful bantar. Generally the rule of thumb, to let my posts be unanswered. I am often the last word in the forums I would reply in or the subject would change from what I was saying. It was a trifle at best. You seem much mroe unfortunate than I was.
I hope that this does bring a sense of closure for you as it did me. There really is no reason to go back as far as I am concerned. The road ahead is 1/100th as populated as it was at Sithism but there is something to be said for quality over quantity.
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xanos
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Post by xanos on Jun 19, 2006 3:11:47 GMT
I so agree with you, Anubium. "Quality over Quantity"
I tried to teach some things to those at Sithism, but how open do you expect people to be when they are being shown up by a mere Initiate? Eh, tis life.
I'll be posting soon some of my findings and one post I wished to place on Sithism but now it looks like you get it.
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Post by Grail on Jun 21, 2006 23:48:39 GMT
Welcome with welcome arms sister, I had wondered what became of you. Anyway this is my forum and any are welcome plus the Code is more if you want or your own version of it (secret lesson). lol anyway nice to have some new blood around, if you want to know anything about this give me a shout or Anubium as we've bother been here around about as long as the forum has. -wanders off to look at any other posts you've made-
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Post by kamearthewanderer on Jun 24, 2006 6:07:37 GMT
I do not seek to be a great leader, I merely wish to find them, teach them and then remain behind the scenes as they become what I saught them to be. so even though you wanted to be trained, the end result was going to end up being exactly what you wanted? maybe this is why Sithisms council said no to putting you in training with Carnage... because they could see that you didn't want to learn but to teach. they saw how you corupted the peole you delt with. that quoate speaks volumes about you and if you would realize this you wouldn't point the finger at Sithism, blaming them you would look at the three reason about yourself that stand out rather clearly. Kamear
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Post by Grail on Jun 25, 2006 1:48:22 GMT
-shrugs- all people have problems Kam but they take many forms and can easily be mis-interepted (trying to remain neutral).
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xanos
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Post by xanos on Jun 25, 2006 19:44:39 GMT
Do not bring it here, Kamear.
What is from Sithism stays there. I wrote a little about it, but that is all. Enough.
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Post by kamearthewanderer on Jun 26, 2006 7:59:49 GMT
Grail --- I understand how and why you want to stay neutral. I respect that.
Xanos... I aint bringing nothing here. I'm pointing out something to you which could possibly be a problem with you, however in stead of wanting to talk about it you tell me I shouldn't talk about it. or that I'm bringing drama about... well the hell with ya then...nI sappose that you think I'm just not worth the time or you don't value me enough to take the time... I figured you would value yourself enough to take the time to atleast think about what I said. oh well fuck ya then... Have a nice life.
Kamear
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Post by Anubium on Jun 26, 2006 21:44:15 GMT
Here's the thing, Xanos. I believe that if Kamear truly only wanted to help you, he would have messaged you privately. Why he shows us all, be it our well being, our weriness, or good fun pushing your buttons...whatever his reason its his reason.
They have a saying: "One person says you're a jackass, then maybe you just hit a bad cord with them. If ten people say you are a jackass then you have to start to revaluate yourself there."
Said simply, Kamear is giving what he knows about you. Here, regardless of all the good and bad you have accomplished elsewhere, you have the same standing as any other. If he doesn't like you, then fine. Whatever, right? You haven't proved him right in my eyes at least so his opinion means dust on this matter to me.
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Post by Grail on Jun 26, 2006 22:14:54 GMT
No Pm's on sithism -switches to reading only and posting if things get too out of hand-
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Post by kamearthewanderer on Jun 27, 2006 1:58:39 GMT
"I do not seek to be a great leader, I merely wish to find them, teach them and then remain behind the scenes as they become what I saught them to be." --- Xanos
I'm sorry but I dont' need to know anything about Xanos to know that this statement that I just quoated from her says that she infact does want to become a great leader. she just doesn't want the exposure or notice of a great leader.
Anubium you have me all wrong. I state the facts for Xanos's own benefit. so that she might see what it is she is doing. I am far to perceptive to be fool by a person such as her or yourself. I have a sayin to it goes as so... "you can't bullshit a bullshiter." Any person can see through her bs.
Kamear
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xanos
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Post by xanos on Jun 27, 2006 8:19:17 GMT
~SMILES~ ;D ;D ;D ;D Exactly, Kamear. I do not want the exposure! You hit it right on the head. As for your secondary comment about me 'not knowing what I am doing'.... I know very well what I am doing, thank you.
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Post by Anubium on Jun 27, 2006 11:35:02 GMT
But we aren't at Sithism. This site's private messaging works just fine. Again, if you really want only to help her then message her privately.
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