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Mar 14, 2006 12:37:46 GMT
Post by Anubium on Mar 14, 2006 12:37:46 GMT
A wise man and friend and ally once said that there come a time when you can no longer be a master. That you must realize that the wheat has been seperated from the chafe, that you can no longer carry the fools that have no interest in your gifts to them. You effort to bring wisdom to those that have not reached you and yet you are delaying for them to catch up...this is wasting too much time for your ownself to improve. Perhaps soon you too will reach my crossroads. There may come a time when being a master isn't enough, teaching others that they too may know your sheer enjoyment of what you are, when nothing matters anymore but your own delvings into the darkness. I offer that you enter a soujurn into training, shut yourself off from the world, from these online communities, and your life. Dive headfirst into the darkness, perpetuate a training like you took when it was all new and your eyes saw only a long road ahead to strive for. We all know you can never attain any great mastership, just take great strides into improvement. We each have forever left to go. People have a tendancy to slow as they feel they have reached their peaks and indeed attain a mastership. We are not Jedi, we are Sith. We are the pinnacles of power, the beacons by which all children see the truth and potential of their most carnal aspirations.
If you do not yet know, I may very well be closing Nexus for this very purpose. As I have begun my training with a new zeal, I reach a sort of selfish mannerism and it seems more an more like a dead weight. I created it to gather the brightest minds that I might learn yet more and it has yet to produce enough to validate itself and the time I spent into it. Consider these things Grail, for I speak them as a friend.
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Mar 14, 2006 19:45:25 GMT
Post by Grail on Mar 14, 2006 19:45:25 GMT
I understand my friend but this place shall remain for as long as I have breath even if I do not remain myself
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Mar 16, 2006 12:34:05 GMT
Post by kawakaari on Mar 16, 2006 12:34:05 GMT
I too will stay here as long as this board runs. By teaching one only becomes stronger, more wise, more powerful. Passing your wisdom onto others does, in turn, pass wisdom back onto you. It is true to say that nobody is the same, everyone has different views on things. By passing on what you know to others they will see it a different way, giving you more knowledge.
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Mar 18, 2006 18:28:28 GMT
Post by Grail on Mar 18, 2006 18:28:28 GMT
Wise words my friend wise words indeed.
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Mar 20, 2006 4:12:40 GMT
Post by smuggler on Mar 20, 2006 4:12:40 GMT
Yet what is the point of this? What do we gain speaking such hollow words.
what training will you undertake Anubium. This I must know
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Mar 21, 2006 0:51:29 GMT
Post by Anubium on Mar 21, 2006 0:51:29 GMT
First, as only a few are in the position to learn, my real teaching has become disrupted and shattered. The work of the past 6 years in bringing together my fellows has collapsed in spite of my best efforts. In fighting of egotistical individuals who quest for power as earnestly as I but can't see the certain dissadvantages that I had seen for the past few months in them and as said, it is all collapsed. I leave my Sith life's work to its own failing devices and return to my original goal.
Before I indulge Smuggler's humble request, I'll answer the posts as they came:
I fully understand that even I had learned much in the teaching of others. First, there is a profound difference between teaching in reality and teaching in this manner. First and foremost is the quality of student body. If this needs to be clarified I will do so but I do not so at the moment because I think you have realized this already kawakaari as you are a teacher online here yourself. In reality, teaching does indeed work both ways but there is a drawback to teaching that you are not mentioning. Given that online is greater in this flaw, in teaching you learn by giving of what you know to other minds that in turn see things from their many varied views and that each one reveals a new facet by which your once singular path to success now has many tried and true paths to the level. I believe I have posted something similar in support of teaching here earlier. The drawback is that, in my opinion, you devote yourself fully to teaching a few students or you devote yourself to your own improvement and perhaps this is where our differences are. Like a parent would, you stop living for yourself and your only aspiration is to bring this potential to a higher level for any of the various reasons that you would do so. You drive them to reach your level but you can not fully test your limits as readily and as often as necessary when you are carrying the weight of another unequal. When you have taught enough students is when you reach the point where, as always, you are still learning occasional new things form them but the frequency is far below enough to consider that teaching in itself is enough to sustain a steady progress into the void. When the benifits are outweighed by the hinderances, it became senseable to me to stop teaching. I have reached a point where in my opinion, and I would sincerly enjoy being proved wrong, I am beyond the pace that any other medium can achieve the momentum that currently only I can sustain.
Now for training. First, I am piece mailing my hand to hand combat corriculums to further incorperate the Keysi along with its brother MCMAP to improve only one the few techniques that are now tried and true that I may become ever faster and ever stronger in what I now am assured to be most effective. The Tai Chi Yang sword form is going to be rewritten now, my goal to improve on what I have no issue with now, because with so many now that weild my form, I need an art that is still superior and now in addition a perfect counterance to Tai Chi Yang. This is a work in progress, not a current achievement. There is also a minor working I am sampling for effectiveness by which I am combining the hand-to-hand with sword form through a the use of Katars and thus far pleased. If you have enjoyed the sample of Kao Seta on my own soon to be deleted board, you would enjoy the new directions I now take into assorted specialties of what I most enjoyed of the most nether of arts within my creation. There are a few that are my main practices now but far from either a gist or majority of the "list" I have written for me of things to be done. Psychic Vampirism and Ki are naturally still heavily being retrained as these are my apparent dark gifts. Also working on a Doppleganger form by which the rumor goes one may double their strength though the one I am currently learning it from is rather vague on the specific outlet or reality of this maneuver. If you know of the soul stone technique then know that there is a whole dimension of knowledge that one begins from a lesson to be learned there and my appreciation for it is now growing again as my understanding of it now depens. As always, there is the walks of the "other worlds" and as ever, this is a boundless harvest of knowledge. Chaos Magica comes in at the end of my list but order has nothing to do with importance.
Though online lessons will most likely be postponed forever, I do still currently intend to continue my doling of random imput such as this for the benefit of others for only the reason that I was there once as well and I owe it to the very Force itself.
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Mar 23, 2006 3:23:14 GMT
Post by kawakaari on Mar 23, 2006 3:23:14 GMT
I see that IS where our differences do lie Anubium. I do not get attached to very many things, and where i do care about this site and it's students, it does not make a great deal of impact on my life. SUre, i will try to get my online students to reach their potential, but, i will not lose focus of raising my potential to even greater lengths.
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Mar 23, 2006 3:28:42 GMT
Post by smuggler on Mar 23, 2006 3:28:42 GMT
As a good friend to Kawakaari, in training and all other facets, I do agree with his last post...and that's all I have to say about that, however,
Anubium, that was certainly an interesting post,
Would you say darkness overtakes you much like the movies, or have you taken the Force, added magic and your opinion to it and then called it the Force? The Dark Force...
What do you believe? I am a Light Jedi, believe in the Force as it is in the movies. I am not mocking you, or anything like that, or at least I wished I didn't.
I just wish to know what your concept of darkness is?
Thankyou for your reply,
Smuggler
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Mar 23, 2006 17:04:01 GMT
Post by chinagrrrl on Mar 23, 2006 17:04:01 GMT
I haven't been on in a while, but when a was browsing I found this post and I hope that I'm not taking the thread out of context, but I wanted to add my quick 2 cents.
I believe that there is an energy field (Force) which absorbs some of all its sentients. "IT" doesn't care one iota about light/dark, in fact I believe it is transcends concepts like that.
However...the sentients which are aware and draw from the Force. They have intentions. They have cultures and ideologies. Some of the most powerful Force users have honed their talents in crucibles of fire and suffering and pain.
I believe that THIS is what adds flavor to the wine of the Force.
Me personally. I was born on the dark side. I think it is my purpose. My duty and my mother-fuckin' Will (with the capital 'W') I know the Force of the Universe is behind me and none other shall say nay. (Thank you Mr.. Crowley)
Occasionally I get someone who tries the whole "covert to the light side" thing and I look at them all cock-eyed and ask them? You think I would even if I really had a choice? No way! I am what I am and I've found my center and seat of power.
I've tippy-toed on the light side (heck, there are some good resources out there) but I don't masquerade. I am what I am. I train. I breath. I center. And I radiate the purest form of darkness I've ever encountered and I gladly share that with anyone with integrity who wishes to drink from that same well-spring, or dialog about contrasts.
I try not to fight the fools fight. Sparring words with those who don't understand or challenge their own view, much less the views of others. Conserve energy for those few times when the dark glimmering resonates and I know I'm being called to do my Duty.
As it Is...So Be It! Chinagrrrl
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Mar 23, 2006 17:19:28 GMT
Post by chinagrrrl on Mar 23, 2006 17:19:28 GMT
Anubium,
Wise words indeed. I don't think that I'll ever consider myself a master, always a student. Teaching only by my example and my willingness to share my piece of the pie. Challenge me and we both learn more about our own techniques, and our opponents.
I've always learned much more about a technique from a broken nose than from an online lecture.
HOWEVER. Online forums connect us in ways that time and space (and money) often do not allow. I would welcome communication, questions and the general sharing of information about personal self-development and Force/Magick work.
So I view these forums not as training grounds...but as the doorway thresholds where that training could be developed and facilitated.
I harbor no illusions though...my training ONLY happens within me. I am accountable for it and responsible for it's care and feeding.
Please email me any of your works/lessons or at least keep me posted on where I can find it. I have enjoyed what you have posted thus far and I'm always interested in developing my sword work.
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Mar 23, 2006 23:56:57 GMT
Post by kawakaari on Mar 23, 2006 23:56:57 GMT
SO very true Chinagrrrl
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Mar 24, 2006 0:06:46 GMT
Post by smuggler on Mar 24, 2006 0:06:46 GMT
A appreciate your in depth explanation of your path, would you mind talking to me more about it? Perhaps on another thread.
As a sidenote, I am not sure whether you were hinting at that I was trying to convert you. I am not, just as a bit of information so that you, and others, can see more where I am coming from with all of my posts.
Thankyou immensely for your well educated and well knowledgable reply. I can see yoiu are an authentic student of darkness, one which I have been searching for for quite some time.
So thankyou again,
Smuggler
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Mar 24, 2006 17:37:06 GMT
Post by chinagrrrl on Mar 24, 2006 17:37:06 GMT
No, no, no. I wasn't hinting that you were trying to convert me. I was just stating that from time to time, I get someone who thinks that the Dark Side is something to be "saved from."
Ptooy!
Conversation and dialog is always welcome.
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Mar 24, 2006 20:20:42 GMT
Post by Grail on Mar 24, 2006 20:20:42 GMT
Hmmm -comments no more on this-
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Mar 30, 2006 22:12:12 GMT
Post by Anubium on Mar 30, 2006 22:12:12 GMT
Unfortunate that you cordially replied so soon after my own post and yet I have been so long away in my own reply to yours. Here you go, Smuggler:
I am not darkness. I am not Sith. My pursuit has always been to become ever stronger simply for the joy of being overpowering. I am take Sithism as a title only in that it best relates to the audience that reads my work that they may have a forewarning of its ideals and goal.
I like the burn of your muscles, the pain of joints as they struggle, the weak euphoria of your body when it can no longer move! Sith aline my pursuit with darkness yet it is not my way. I am not Sith. I only seem dark because of my persuits into darkness as they are currently the quickest producers of effect. Secondly, I deal very little with the Force. I've spent my entire post-baptismal life in making my own strengths from my own body's energies (ki), developing techniques, stretegies, and existance without the Force or based upon its whim.
I believe I have explained elsewhere on this board but if you like, I would not mind divulging again on this subject of my individuality at your whim. There is no offense taken when the words come from one of wisdom, by they way. What you say, I will consider with the due weight and merrit. Speak your mind.
And Kawakaari, if you truly put your heart into something, then it seems natural to me to care about its fruition. This has not been a reference to my online temple but the real one created a few years back.
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